|Posted on July 17, 2014 at 8:15 PM|
I’ve been feeling shut down. I’m not sure what set it in motion, and I don’t need to know. It became very apparent when I was unable to cry upon hearing of the Sandy Brook shooting. With a history of PTSD and addiction, this numbness is not unfamiliar, but not someplace I want to be – no longer something I equate with “normal.” I had not been practicing my T’ai Chi Chih due to the flu, and although still tired, this morning I resumed my practice. Aaaahhhh – there it was – anchored between heaven and earth – held within my breath, contained in the roots I sent into the ground – there was my center. With each movement, the Qi grew stronger between my palms – flooding my spine and tan t’ien. So nice to know I can trust in the form, and all it connects me to, to bring me back to myself – physically, emotionally, and Spiritually. Thank you to all my teachers and students. Thank you Justin.